completely dismantled

2011-07-05T01:09:00.000+08:00

shifffff.tumblr.com

2011-05-07T01:54:00.001+08:00

so long and thanks for all the fish.

2011-04-25T21:00:00.002+08:00

ill take what i get.

long weekends somehow make my mondays seem more tiring. i was wearing a purple and white striped shirt today, and the guy who sat down beside me on the bus was wearing a purplish peach and white striped shirt. for some reason i felt silly |: i had pontian wantonmee add more wantons for lunch today. and i found some new mj kakis. i also bought two dollars of toto QUICKPICK but did not win the one point five mil. quickpick is a funny word.

i just caught up with the last two episodes of house. to those who watched it: thirteen!! (: i like her character, shes the only one who i think matches up with house. in terms of, well house. she is very house like (: just as arrogant, full of wit, unexpected, everything. i suddenly want to rewatch the season that he fired his original team and had like fifty new people on his team.

and im going to have multigrain country loaf and nutella for breakfast tomorrow.

2011-04-23T21:23:00.002+08:00

lets do amazing.

i feel so grown up! which is so weird for me. i can probably dig up ten entries here all dedicated to being peter pan. been so sheltered all my life thus i suddenly feel so exposed. like anything can happen. anything good anything bad.

cant believe its been three weeks already! i survived! not worried about the work part, i think im good with the work part. im not exactly satisfied with the hours i get to sleep, but i still make it work. what im most happy about is that. me, the most socially awkward person i know, survived meeting so many new people, having to interact with said new people and trying to fit in well with them! key word trying. heh. in university, because my is class consisted of ten people and i dont exactly hang out with my management class people cause those were more like huge lectures. just the hey can i borrow last weeks notes kind of thing. so i only had to interact with my is people and not all of them well. before that was jc. i basically only made friends with people in my class. twenty plus people for two years! and thats good for me. and before that .. well thats history.

do you remember the first time you met me? tell me if you do! cause i think i make a terrible first impression. im awkward, i tend to panic when i dont know what to say, usually i have nothing to say, im a relatively nice person but im just not that friendly i dont know why. no idea how i got past the job interviews.

i feel like i should chalk it all up to luck. ive been really down and out for like a half a year, and suddenly everything just comes together. how that happen huh.

on the twelfth day of christmas
my true love sent to me
twelve drummers drumming
eleven pipers piping
ten lords a leaping
nine ladies dancing
eight maids a milking
seven swans a swimming
six geese a laying
FIVE GOLDEN RINGS (:
four calling birds
three french hen
two turtle doves
and a partridge in a pear tree

2011-04-19T22:19:00.002+08:00

the golden age.

i havent been watching much tv, but this song has been stuck in my head for a couple days now! shall grab the album and check out the rest of the songs. like the lead singer.

busy busy busy! and i think i might just develop muscles on my left arm in a months time. i quite enjoy my three busstops walk to/fro work every morning and evening. i like the time alone. but doing that whilst carrying a 2.5kg bag is no fun at all ): need to get wheels soon!

looking at all the new episodes now sitting in my ddrive. but just feeling too tired to start. plus i just acquired no ordinary family season one last night. cause i decided that i have not watched a show involving supernatural powers for a while now. nvm, long weekend this week and next week! i am weirdly going to divide my time between sleeping shows and buying new clothes. i feel like i do not have nearly enough clothes for work ):

i love short awesome videos now. cause they make me smile but do not require much attention. finally watched the rooney overhead kick goal last week, damn nice shot! im not a soccer fan, but i replayed that vid like three times la! if i could i would watch it in super slowmo. and just watched this one on fb.

(: (: (:

GN!

2011-04-10T02:16:00.002+08:00

joy to the fishes in the deep blue sea.

i currently have ten open games in words with friends! seven friends, two random guys, and random derek |: he has not yet responded haha. username shifan. play a game with me if you arent already. pass time more quickly on the road to work!

im happy today (: i got to sleep twelve hours ish. played cs for a while before everyone started messaging me at the same time and i had to leave my character standing in the middle of nowhere to reply and get shot many times |: played mahjong for a tiny bit there too! and no idea why there was a frenzy over wwf. haha lynn i think we started it. and hey, we didnt play wii today!

thanks everyone who came to celebrate the end of my freedom and super early birthday (: i will bring the mug to work after i move! dear easties, thanks for trudging all the way here! cheap ribs! and a weird bottle of baileys (:

and remember to note down somewhere, shifans to do list for 9 april 2021: #33 hahahahaha! itd be soooooo funny if that day ever comes, and we are still alive, and the world has not ended, and one of you people remembers it!! we will be thirty four then! my archives might be gone by then, so you have to refer to cherylts phone screenshot for proof.

yeah! i just scored an eighty points word with one of the cheryls (:

GN!

2011-04-08T22:59:00.002+08:00

finally appreciates tgif.

this is such a dilemma. i really really really want to go and sleep because im so exhausted. but i also want to stay up late and watch my shows and play my games and surf my net because i havent been doing that all week. cant decide! and i have to remember to wake up latest three thirty tomorrow before people show up at my house.

mygod. why did i click on it. someone just posted a vid on fb of a poor fish deep fried and eaten alive. no idea why it didnt die during the deep fry but it was still moving when they poked it and proceeded to giap its meat off with a chopstick. |: why would people do such a thing.

i hate public toilets. never liked to use them unless i really need to. and i especially dislike those with the main doors cause people either open it with just washed wet hands or not yet washed dirty hands. so sometimes i just stand in front of the mirror and pretend to do stuff to my hair while waiting for someone to come in or go out. so i can slip out without touching anything. im weird i know. i think weve already established that a long time ago. anyways i came across this website the other day: link. cool huh, opening the door with your shoes. plus its a simple device, no complicated motion sensor electronic buttons or anything.

i feel like i should have one of this!

i choose you! hahahaha! i never thought about the phrase like that.

2011-04-05T23:26:00.002+08:00

hello, my name is.

i no longer have time for the ridiculous amount of shows i watch! this is weird. but strangely good weird. im so tired though. my poor body clock must be thinking what the hell is going on here. technically i havent done anything yet, just sitting around, reading stuff and installing stuff and filling in online forms and data and stuff. but its a whole new world. chapter three.

yesterday i came home, had dinner, showered, watched an episode of chuck (bartowsky, not bass), surfed the web for a bit, played a little cs before going to bed. today, i came home, showered, ate some cereal, watched an episode of chuck, surfed the web for a bit (my rss feeds are piling up!) and now i dont even have the energy to play cs. im going to go plop down on the bed after this!

more later!

2011-04-01T18:46:00.002+08:00

forget off.

my last friday! im so tired, ive been out practically every day this week just because i can. plus everyone keeps asking me to enjoy my last days. my soles and shoulders are hurting ): bought a couple more new shirts today! i think i need to go shop more this weekend, else i only have clothes for one week.

many new episodes today! will get to them later, quite excited, been hearing reviews about the greys musical episode all week long.

the internets been weird this week. do you want abs? get a six pack in seconds here using the most ridiculous product ever! theres been iphone gaming addons floating around for a while now, but this 3d gaming system is the most exaggerated one ive seen. and speaking of 3d, check out these new anti 3d glasses! it de-3ds your 3d movies into regular 2d movies. i know right, poison..antidote.. and if youre bored out of your mind, scroll through these awkward wedding photos! they are exactly what they sound like.

:o :p

2011-03-31T23:23:00.000+08:00

at the edge.

i woke up really early to recee my future bus route today! took me exactly an hour to get there. on the plus side, there were seats! anyways. afterwards, i felt that it would be silly to take the same bus and loop home, so i randomly walked around the area, and i accidentally wandered into sentosa!

i think this is new. links vivocity to sentosa, with sheltered walkway and numerous travelators. had to pay one dollar to enter sentosa though.

they had a number of lookout points. this one was spectacular (: if you look carefully, theres a flaw. theres a man in the picture. he suddenly appeared while i was taking the picture and i had no patience to wait for him to walk out of the shot cause its a really big one. so i tried to blend him in with the trees.

a brightly coloured close up of the first view of sentosa.

saw lots of tourists and many old aunties and uncles presumably heading to the casino. shops werent open for business yet though. so i took the train thing back to vivo and headed to ikea for breakfast! such a day of leisure (: despite the waking up at six am part. but naturally before i left, i had to take this shot.

i love the light and how the blue pops in the picture. and the clouds. how lovely. took all these on my phone btw. too lazy to try out all the fancy camera apps. sticking to the first one i downloaded off the market that comes with preset scene options (lomo, sepia, b&w, normal, contrast etc) i especially love the black and white contrast scene.

2011-03-30T00:51:00.006+08:00

the calm before the storm.

mygod. i was just stalked by a cat |: i didnt bring my phone out, else i would have taken a video of it. it was weird. i popped downstairs at eleven fortyfive to get some food from macs, and on the way back home, a cat followed me all the way from the entrance of plaza carpark to my lift lobby. which is quite a long way. it was more of a front and back thing. it would stopped moving in the middle of the path in front of me and look back, which made me freeze (i know it was a really skinny cat but i was still worried it might pounce on my foot or something) then i would move a couple inches to the side and continue walking, and after a few seconds, it would turn back and run parallel beside me and then again stop in front of me. repeat repeat and repeat. and it kept meowing quite loudly at me. i was frankly a little scared to walk my normal route across the narrow drain towards my flat, so i hesitated there for quite a while with a cat in front of me, before i decided to walk a big round to my block drop off point. all the while becoming more and more worried that it might follow me into the lift. i actually considered walking back to macs where there were more people and maybe it would stalk someone else. i was also thinking it was probably following me cause of the food i was holding, and i wanted to give it some, but all i had were two burgers and a green tea. do cats eat fried chicken and beef and cheese? how about toasted bread? i dont know, i dont really associate cat with bread.. well luckily i continued walking, and as i turned the corner toward my lift lobby, a man (thank god!) walked out from the carpark and the cat stopped and stared at him for a bit. i saw him wave his keys at the cat, and i immediately and hastily walked off to the lobby, turning back every few millisecond to check for the cat, and closed the door really really quickly once i was in the lift. scaredy cat? hahahaha! well im safe at home now, but i feel really bad. what if it were really hungry? and i could have helped it feel better with just bread or maybe some green tea, i dont know. urgh. i hate this. i hate this feeling. this lingering feeling of guilt. this is why i dont like do wrong things. i know you are not supposed to do wrong things because they are wrong, but i really dislike this guilt thing. it stays with me forever. i have this urge to go downstairs now with some catish food and look for it. but that would be totally crazy right. say yes. plus its been an hour and a half since it happened, the cat probably wandered off stalking someone else right. urgh. if i cant sleep tonight, it going to be because im thinking about the cat.

):

oh well. in the time it took me to process all those thoughts, i built a nanoblock grand piano that i bought from toysrus today. its like lego. but mini. had a hard time building it with my big fingers. shall display it atop my real grand piano.

haih. i was actually in an awesome mood today. played cs for a while when i woke up, went out and got a haircut, got some koi, finally had shihlin chicken, hung out at the national geographic store for a bit (one of my favourite stores), picked up a really cute thing at page one. shall give it to a friend. i was even fine when there were no seats on the bus home, cause i got to play words with friends, sudoku, catch up on pulse, play a little harvest moon, and listen to jielun (: played more cs when i got home (its really addictive plus i didnt want to waste the gun i just bought which only lasts for three days) but now i cant think about anything else except it.

urgh.

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im must be crazy! i didnt want to feel like that anymore, so i searched my house for food, but only found this breadish thing. googled it, its fine for cats. and couldnt find disposable container for some water (i didnt know cats cant process cows milk until just now) so i took the two small containers and kept my muffin paper cups in the drawers.

i walked around my block area for a bit and found my cat! its the mostly white one on the box. it had friends! and they drank my water and ate my food! i feel so good now, its ridiculous. it seems other people have been feeding them and taking care of them there. the other containers of some water and scraps were already there. see, im pro animals. its just that i dont really like to be in close proximity to them. it was rather scary when i found them cause they were cosied up on the box, and staring at me. with six eyes. i put the water down as far as i could go and threw the bread thing a little nearer to them. its kinda like i want them to be well but i dont want to have to be near them. i know im weird. doesnt matter, as long as the cats have water and some stuff to munch on, and i feel good. yay mission accomplished! (:

2011-03-28T23:51:00.003+08:00

forty seven shades of grey.

today i finally sorted out my last box of belongings. right now, my belongings consist of my clothes, the things on my desk, a couple jigsaw puzzles, a couple backpacks, and two ikea boxes, one of current stuff, one of old stuff. if i were to migrate somewhere far off, i could literally pack and leave in twenty minutes. just need to find a box to stuff in all my clothes. the box i repacked today was the box of old stuff, some random things from sa, but mostly from sc and rc. its like a box of memories. people gave me really weird stuff! and you have no idea how many letters i have. there were stacks and packets and boxes of letters from really random people all through secondary school. mostly a lot from the red cross people. i must have spent a hell lot of time writing those four years |: scanned through some of the letters (: memories (: but it was really weird rereading some of the others letters. i was young. thats all i shall say. found all my class photos as well, from sec one to jtwo. i look more or less the same, just my hair got disturbingly and remarkably messy. ohh and i also found a couple of floppy disks! the three and a half inch kind. it must have been some stuff that really meant something to me that i thought to make a copy and save it. but i didnt think to label them |: anyone knows how i can get these disks read?

well. it was quite nice today, a good feeling, when i saw some of the things people made for me, some of the things people gave me, some of the words people wrote to me. made me wonder what it would be like to see these people today.

huh.

anyways. a good and entertaining distraction: animal humour with british accents.

also, follow this link to a vid and prepare to be wowed. when i watched it, i was literally wowed. but a part of me thinks it is a fake product. what do you think?

2011-03-26T17:42:00.003+08:00

another one hundred random facts about shifan. [part one]

1. i love mints
2. i can solve a 4x4 rubiks cube
3. i watch glee
4. i can play the piano
5. i am five feet four inches
6. my favourite subway sandwich is subway club
7. i am afraid to look into letterboxes
8. i dont own a dress
9. i like to be very clean
10. my favourite tv show is lost
11. my favourite tv show character is chandler bing
12. i like to sketch portraits
13. i sometimes worry that people can hear my thoughts
14. i dont own a single apple product
15. i have not worked a single day in my life
16. i still dont know how to swim
17. i dont like tomatoes
18. i have very few friends
19. i bruise easily
20. i grind my teeth really loudly in my sleep, apparently
21. i skydived in switzerland
22. sometimes i concentrate on objects hoping that i develop telekinetic powers
23. i love crabsticks
24. i can write with both hands
25. i have successfully donated blood once
26. my favourite colour is green
27. i have been to 16 countries
28. i do not intend to read the twilight books
29. i dont like chicken essence
30. i need twelve hours of sleep daily
31. i have huge hands
32. i know c++ programming
33. sometimes i secretly sing when im alone
34. i am pale
35. i dont generally listen to pop songs
36. i believe in second chances
37. i can do basic pen spinnings
38. i dont use a comb
39. i have a unique wave
40. i had a childhood recurring nightmare involving a monster and a curry tunnel
41. i have rollerbladed once
42. i was born at 2.27pm
43. my voice gets lower as i get sleepier
44. i use a motorola phone
45. i blush very easily
46. i have been to the top of europe
47. i love to play minesweeper on my computer
48. i have not run at all in the past five years
49. i once drove at 140 km/h
50. i have never been drunk

mygod. this is tiring. it took me forty minutes to come up with the above fifty random facts. i shall perhaps continue this another day. feeling too old for it now.

2011-03-26T00:49:00.003+08:00

awesome video this is.

this made my day! my favourite form of battle next to wizards duel. expelliarmus!

2011-03-23T01:37:00.003+08:00

i am flawed.

today was a strange albeit awesome day. i felt so young and so grown up at the same time. i couldnt sleep so i stayed up all the night and spent an hour or two of it scanning through old lword episodes. kinda miss it. remember watching it during the good old jc days. went online and bought a couple of new shirts yay (: went online again and played counterstrike. i am suddenly addicted to the zombie mode. i think i played for a really long time cause the next thing i remembered, i felt like having lunch. made a couple of really important phone calls, and replied to a couple of emails. then spontaneously brought the brother out. and annoyingly had an extremely obnoxious and sexist cab driver (uncle, to clarify) had an awesome awesome satisfying lunch (: and good conversation with random doses of sniper talk! no good movies today so we popped by the arcade! when was the last time you went to an arcade! it is fun! we did star wars pod racing, motorcycle racing, really weird jungle ride with guns to shoot at creepy creatures and giant spiders! and there was this game we played thrice where you had to throw small plastic balls at a big touchscreen lcd thing with moving targets (ghosts, bottles, bugs...) on it. cause you had to bend down to take the balls and straighten up to throw, i was kinda tired from it. afterwhich we played the basketball game, and by stage three my arms just kinda died |: no bishibashi or jubeat there though. remember when we were young, we used to have wy wy wonderland! you play some games, the machine pops out some tickets and you exchange them for stuff? nowadays its electronic tickets! we won 73 tickets, but they had really random things, so i only used 27 of it and exchanged for a deck of old maid cards!! remember old maid! anyways, to top off the lovely day, we stopped by m&s and picked up my favourite cereal! deliciously nutty crunch (: its on sale btw, two for fifteen! also got some chips and some mints. came home, cleaned up, and proceeded to watch todays new episodes: himym, chuck and house (: traded a couple more emails, watched a couple more shows, and here i am! ive done nothing but things i love today (: considering my least favourite part of the day was when we had to take a bus home cause the 35 percent surcharges really not worth it. what an awesome day (: the only things missing from it are koi (: and i have a sudden craving for maxwell ngohhiang beehoon, and twelve hours of sleep! which i am definitely going to get after this, maybe after some more cs. yes. i can honestly say i loved my today.

yet. because of two words i said today, im not going to have many more todays left. no more peter pan. no more fairy dust coated world for shifan. i am a little scared, but kinda excited about it as well. but yes im definitely happy about it.

2011-03-21T23:45:00.003+08:00

i just want to be your friend.

Blinky™ from Ruairi Robinson on Vimeo.

omg. recently my resting pulse rate has already been unusually high, and this video just made it pound even harder |: wth!

2011-03-17T15:20:00.002+08:00

ignorance is bliss.

2011-03-15T19:06:00.002+08:00

my homosapien aortic pump.

since young ive had this problem. ive always have a hard time falling asleep the night before something big. the first day of school, important examinations, going on holiday etc. whatever that makes me happy/nervous/scared/excited all at the same time. so because of this whole chapter three thing, i couldnt fall asleep last night. i laid in bed with my eyes closed for like an hour, got up and played some backgammon (its my go to game before i sleep every night) tried a little harvestmoon, even read some stories. still couldnt sleep. closed my eyes again, and got up again. last time i saw the clock, it read five am. being paranoid me, i set about eight alarms, and asked my mum to wake me up before she left for work. so of course i was punctual, but i only got four hours of sleep. twelve is my optimal. anyways, everything went well though i was still feeling happy/nervous/scared/excited for most part of the day. afterward, i trotted down to chinatown to get koi and since i was already out and had no other plans, i decided to go to the bloodbank. ive been there a five six times last year but only managed to successfully donate blood once. apparently i have low iron. well, today i was feeling good, like a high haemoglobin level good, so i decided to try for the first time this year. filled in the forms, everything went well, hey i put on weight! went through the forms and all, and then suddenly i was told i couldnt donate ): apparently i was having a mild adrenaline rush of sorts. i had a 110 pulse rate, regular adults are supposed to be 80ish. just count your pulses for the next fifteen seconds, it should be about 20 beats. at first the lady thought i was nervous or something, so we took it like four times and each time it got higher |: so she told me to go sit in the waiting area, have some water, take a rest, calm down for a bit (hahaha like an adult time out) i tried everything, breathing deeply, drinking water, clearing my mind, trying not to feel anything, its really hard. i could feel my heart pounding away. ten minutes later we checked again and my pulse was still sky high. apparently only infants are supposed to have a pulse rate like that. haha i guess im young at heart. hahahaha cant believe i just wrote that, im lame like that sometimes. oh well. suppose i will try again in a couple weeks or so. life is weird.

im still feeling a rush, i shall go play some cs, shoot some people in the head multiple times (:

2011-03-14T02:20:00.004+08:00

would you know how to fix me.

rosi golan/william fitzsimmons - hazy

new favourite song running on loop in my head (: a very welcomed change to the sudden no explanation bursts of the opening verse of afternoon delight for the past couple of days |:

2011-03-13T00:40:00.003+08:00

you are now entering a protected area.

taken 12 march 2011, 7.57pm, johor bahru, malaysia

randomly and spontaneously decided and went to jb for the day! the last time i was there i was wearing braces, thats jc i think. i didnt know the exchange rate is 2.35 now! its really good, except instead of just halving the price of stuff, i had to do a slightly more tedious calculation. though i just realised i didnt actually buy a single thing, just consumed lots of food. had awesome tzechar dinner near the new shopping center (: took the above picture while waiting for the food to come. maybe i should have taken a shot of the food, it was crazy. there were only three of us, but we ended up with eight plates of stuff on the table. plus drinks. for all of fifty ringgit! we should eat there more often. also took a couple of cab rides within jb, they somehow felt kinda dodgy.

i dont know why, but i suddenly feel like having the shihlin chicken. its one am |:

this made me laugh today (: i especially like the 'still believe'.

if you like it, watch the eternal flame one as well! this show, fast and loose, i havent watched much, but i reckon its more or less something like whose line, lots of improv comedy skits and games. quite good so far! and its british comedy, what can go wrong!

2011-03-10T00:15:00.004+08:00

kill your neighbour.

wow im excited. havent been so hyped about a tv show since lost. stumbled upon this show accidentally. persons unknown. the pilot was awesome. its not scifi, its not comedy, no silly love romance entanglements, just pure drama.

just one season. kinda like harpers island in that sense. but so far no horrific murdering of sorts. huh. actually it is like harpers island without the creepy serial murderers. its basically about a group of strangers kidnapped and brought to this empty town. they wake up, suspicious of each other, and are being watched through the many security cameras, and unable to leave the town. the pilot was awesome. flashforwards pilot was awesome too, and it went downhill from there. but so far, the second and third episodes are still thrillingly great. it kinda reminds me of identity as well. the john cusack movie. i must have watched that movie five six times. love this type of suspense drama, but preferably without gory deaths. am going to continue with the marathon. more later (:

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loved the show. there are tons of bad reviews out there, mostly about all the questions unanswered, mysteries unrevealed. but it was still awesome tv. there was a point where youd think you got the whole thing figured out, thats how the story is going to end, and suddenly the plot twists again. again, its awesome tv. its meant as a one season, so i wouldnt necessary think of the ending as a cliffhanger, more like natural progression of the main plot of the show. sure, there are questions and probably some loopholes, but i had a great time watching it all. and thats what i love about tv. watch it! twelve hours of good tv well recommended (: plus there are no gory deaths, promise.

2011-03-09T21:29:00.003+08:00

peter pan.

its like i left the black and white back in school. its shades of grey from here on out.

2011-03-04T01:19:00.004+08:00

...

whole new meaning of bench press
crazy lady solves wheel of fortune with one letter
harry potter pickup lines conversation between two girls
toast coasters i want to buy
some awesome modern offices (pixar! google!)

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oooh. just started watching episodes! not excellent comedy, but joey looks gooood salt and pepper (:

2011-02-24T23:17:00.003+08:00

jd.

guy love! ive been rewatching scrubs lately (: finishing up season eight now, cant wait to rewatch season nine! lots of critic about it but i do love the new jd lucy (:

and ive decided to try watching 30 rock, again! i finally caught up with the current episode of snl. its been a week and im missing it. maybe watching 30 rock will help!

2011-02-17T00:11:00.004+08:00

the easiest way to lose something is to want it too badly.

taken 28 may 2009, 10.33 pm, probably one of my marketing essays

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yes sometimes i take random pictures of random things at random angles at random times. just to out of the blue post them up in my blog two years later. its like my bookmarks. sometimes i come across interesting slash weird slash entertaining things on the web, and i bookmark them in my others tab, and randomly post it up whenever. and other times i forget about these pictures and bookmarks, they just pile up. one day im going to just unload them all in a rubbish coated rubbish filling entry.

anyways. i came back to edit this because i was just looking at the picture again and for some reason spent a couple of minutes staring at it. i love my handwriting (: sorry, narcissistic comment i know. but its quite nice right? once you get past the fact that all my rounded alphabets look alike, all my curved alphabets look alike, i like to join my alphabets together, and also like to compensate all that by emphasizing on alphabets with the long vertical strokes. you should see my exam scripts, they just look like ten pages of o's and n's and t's and y's. seriously. as i write faster, coeas just looks like five funny os. hnrumv just looks like six ns. unless its a weird alphabet, like x, you cant mess up x. cause its two strokes and ends on the left side.

one time i was so bored, a couple years back, i started learning how to write with my left hand. really not as easy as it sounds. go ahead, just try writing hello, or even just o. it weirdly takes a lot out of you. im quite fluent in my left handwriting considering, but its nowhere like my right handwriting. one of the reasons i sometimes write out my notes with my left hand just to practice was that i was thinking it would be nice to have an extra hand to write with during the exams cause sometimes writing three hours straight cramps up my hand cause i always grip the pen real tight when im nervous. i do have that bump on my middle finger from all the tight gripping since young. anyways i was saying. well turns out, my right handwriting is, as above in the picture. and my left handwriting looks like the handwriting of a twelve year old boy. regular twelve year old boy, not the artistic kind. so i figured it would be weird if i turn in an exam script consisting of two distinct sets of handwriting. what a waste of my time practicing left handwriting huh.

and i cant believe i just crapped three whole paragraphs about my handwriting. i should read up on graphology. is it graphology? i dont know, lazy to google, the study of handwriting. well at least, its not red underlining graphology, its red underlining google. huh. google should be a legitimate word. its like the 21st century ultimate answer. and its like a noun, a verb, an adjective, and i would continue if i knew more of these terms. i dont even know what they are called collectively, word types? yeah. and it should be word of the year, word of the century. not sarah palins silly refudiate |: which was a typo to begin with. strange world, strange strange world.

i digress. i was meaning to say that i cant believe i wrote an entry about my handwriting, when it was supposed to be about the title of the entry. of all the things in the world, my handwriting. oh well. i think i may have actually run out of things to talk about. its like the other time my friends and i were having this really weird conversation, which made me think that after ten freaking years of friendship, we may have talked so much, we ran out of conversation topics. if you are hesitant to believe that it is actually true, well, we were having a debate about whether birds pee. yeah. i did just wrote the words 'whether birds pee'. speaking of which, the debate wasnt actually settled. i cant really remember who was in the conversation, but safe to say, some of them read this crap i write. so, let me settle it. check it out: dobirdspee.com hahahaha im not kidding, the url is indeed dobirdspee.com. they did not give a definite answer, just a collective of information which seems to support both ends of the debate. please click on the link to the website (i dont even know if it qualifies as a website) to read more. theres even a picture of a hummingbird peeing, that can be enlarged. also please read the first line of the web page, which reassures that we are bright humans who seek truth, as opposed to weird friends who have nothing else to talk about. haha! and if you are still not convinced, try googling 'do birds pee', it returns you with more than 1.7 million websites dedicated to answering this very extremely weird choice of topic.

you know. people have blogs for a million different reasons. but mostly, people either like to write about their feelings deep down, or their superficial daily doings, or their time spent somewhere abroad, chronicles as such, or critic and review stuff, or interesting updates about the world, anything and everything, or just to post up pictures, or as it seems to be a trend now, repost stuff that other people posted. check tumblr. yeah. but apparently i dont fit into any of those categories. i have my own category of 'write about tv shows i love and how much i love them and how other people should also love them and then sometimes write about the most random things that goes through my head.'

if the world ended on december 21 2012, i probably would have accomplished nothing. if you were to ask me to look back and think about the top five greatest moments of my life, not the woohoo greatest moments of my life. more of like the top five moments in my life that i was most proud of myself. i would have to think for a very long time. let me get back about that ... when i have an answer.

and to balance out this entry of pure nonsense. ok wait i cant help it, one last random shifan thought. you know, it was only in jc, that i realised that the word nonsense, is so because its made up of non and sense. as in no sense. yeah i remember very clearly cause i was talking to my friend merry (yes i have a friend named merry) and she said something was nonsense and it just suddenly dawned on me at that moment. still remember it clear as day, we were sitting first row in lt3. probably math or physics lecture. ok, its also still clear as day, because immediately after that thought, i was hit with a 'oh my god, i cant believe it took my eighteen years to figure that out' thought, which made me felt really stupid. and i usually remember these moments well. next time remind me to write about the time i was in this performance thing and had to die on the stage and ended up accidentally full forced banged my head into another persons head. it hurt like hell. but i still had to pretend i was dead. ohh i digress again. i was going to balance out this entry of pure nonsense by including that i started watching the new season of chuck! and i am liking it! see, i had one line of words in my head, but i just had to write in the other ridiculous random thoughts that popped in as well |: bye, im off to continue watching chuck (:

2011-02-11T20:08:00.002+08:00

you can complain because roses have thorns or you can rejoice because thorns have roses.

taken 11 february 2011, 1.26 pm, wallace trail, dairy farm nature park

i went for a walk today. in the hot hot sun. i was actually meaning to make my way from dairy farm up to bukit timah summit to take some pictures. but it was too darn hot. anyways. this is the first time ive tried taking shots with my phone. not too bad i think. 8 megapixels with xenon flash. will try out the fancy camera apps next time round. always wanted to take a tilt shift shot.

interesting wooden steps on the way up dairy farm nature park.

2011-02-10T23:41:00.000+08:00

this is the song of my life.

you know how although its a cliche, but sometimes people quote song lyrics and then bold the lines that they feel means a lot to them or feel they relate to strongly? well, consider me bolding the entire song. the term darkened street is so apt.

):

well i dont know what im looking for
but i know that i just wanna look some more
and i wont be satisfied
till theres nothing left that i havent tried
for some people its an easy choice
but for me theres a devil and an angels voice
well i dont know what i am looking for
but i know that i just wanna look some more

well i dont know what im living for
but i know that i just wanna live some more
and you hear it from strangers
and you hear it from friends
that love never dies and love never ends
and i dont wanna argue, no i dont wanna fight
cause youre always wrong and im always right
well i dont know what i am living for
but i know that i just wanna live some more

i used to be involved, and i felt like a king
now ive lost it all and i dont feel a thing
i may never grow old, i may never give in
and ill blame this world that i live in
i visit hell on a daily basis
i see the sadness in all your faces

ive got friends who have married and their lives seem complete
here i am still stumbling down a darkened street
darkened street and i act like a child and im insecure
and im filled with doubt and im immature
sometimes it creeps up on me and before i know it im lost at sea
but no matter how far i row i always find my way back home
but i dont know what ive been waiting for
but i know that i dont wanna wait anymore

2011-02-09T13:23:00.002+08:00

I WANT A WAFFLE IRON.

//edit
and speaking of things i want, my watch died ): ive been told to get it repaired, but since i shipped it from japan, i have no idea where to do that. so i figured, since one of the led light is spoilt anyways and at least it lasted for more than two years, i shall just leave it for a bit. so meanwhile, im wearing a thirteen dollar watch i randomly bought two minutes after i found out my watch had died |: but ive spent the last couple of days browsing for a brand new watch! im down to two watches, still cant decide between them. both are analog watches, not as ~~ah beng~~ fancy as my old watch. both cost about the same, though not as ridiculous as the old watch, which i just realise i can trade it in for thirty of my current watch /:

yeah. you have to understand that the watch is the only accessory i like. its kinda like my version of shoes. just instead of a buying twenty pairs, i buy one extremely good and expensive pair.

ooh. i have no idea why i was sidetracked. but right after i typed the last paragraph, i was thinking about something, and something else and i cant remember what, but somehow it led to me remembering to call up the school. ive been meaning to do that since a month ago, but just kept forgetting about it. anyways. my graduation ceremony is coming up next week, but im not going to attend. because they want to charge me for it. and for that ridiculous fee, i only get to bring one guest. what am i supposed to do with that? pick my favourite parent and let the other one stone at home? additional guests means additional charge. three hundred bucks for my two parents to see me up on the stage for a full five seconds? nah. id rather take a picture holding the certificate against the wall in my house, wearing my favourite home shirt and fbts. id rather fly my parents and i to attend the other graduation ceremony in london in march than to pay the three hundred bucks for this graduation ceremony at, wait let me check, raffles city convention center. they do keep emailing me about the grad ceremony in london. haha my dad says we will do that if he strikes the ten mil toto.

ive been watching old episodes of snl. just watched the betty white episode! wow it is gooooooood! (:

2011-02-07T17:55:00.004+08:00

there was a lift. four people entered. my mum and i. indian woman and daughter. pressed seventeen. lift went up. stopped at storey two. chinese woman entered. lift continued up. storey seventeen. everyone got out and turned right. walked down the corridor. indians to the second house, us to the third and chinese lady to the last.

what were the chances!

postscript. just watched the green hornet! we were a little worried before the show started, cause there were many old people in the cinema! and when i say old, im not talking parents old, im talking grandparents old. for a moment i kept thinking maybe we went to the wrong theatre, maybe this is showing great great world or something. even though i double checked and triple checked my tickets. the show was typical, not excellent. jielun was fun to watch, though sometimes i had to read the chinese subtitles to catch his words. i just checked my ticket stubs mug, the previous movie i watched was inception! thats august twenty ten. thats half a year without going to the movies! of course that doesnt mean i dont watch movies, i dont go to the movies doesnt mean the movies wont come to me. or my laptop. now i feel like watching shaolin! also saw that previews are up for black swan! wouldnt mind watching that again. though not in the theatres here. thought it would be rated r21, instead of m18 with scene cuts. speaking of which, ive not yet watched an r21 movie in the theatres before! is it theaters not theatres? why do they keep red underlining my words |: i was saying, i wonder if ill be checked. i do kinda think i can still blend in with the jc crowd.

if youre bored like me, check out all the commercials aired during the superbowl! they are mostly awesome (: and also cowboys and aliens trailer. i still think its a weird movie.

i was going to post pictures and links to strange and interesting stuff i read on the internet today. but the thought of typing lots of a href is exhausting. i shall text them instead:

awesome picture of a regular 2B pencil with the words fuck photoshop stenciled on it. article about a canadian dude who wore the same pair of jeans every day for fifteen months without washing. which turned out to have no more bacteria on it than then the same pair of jeans worn for thirteen consecutive days. strange lady invented wearable planters. whats that! a necklace with a miniature vase with real plants in it. for a brief moment i thought maybe it was some kind of new age oxygen supply thing. but no, it was created as a decorative accessory with a caption why should your plants stay at home? dude got arrested for several home burglaries because he left his phone charging in one of them. a tweet read 'Great. My book ran out of batteries. Stupid future.' another bag read 'I never got my acceptance letter from Hogwarts. So I'm leaving The Shire. And becoming a Jedi.' and i would like to play knokkers. whats that! its bowling plus pool fullstop. google it.

goodnight!

2011-02-04T01:21:00.003+08:00

dare to jump.

hny hny (:

hello! my mum asked me to download and edit out her skydiving vid cause she wants to show it to her friends. so i thought id do mine too! i know its been six months, well what can i say, i really do procrastinate. anyways. i dont know why the vid resolution is so low |: and i checked 'pop' background music on the skydive form and this is what i got haha

(: (: (:

2011-02-03T14:44:00.002+08:00

love kristen wiig!

2011-01-31T15:38:00.001+08:00

bazinga!

postscript. very funny article.

2011-01-29T03:55:00.003+08:00

wow. exceptional exceptional story! not a big fan of psychological thrillers but this was really good! though not a good idea to watch it at two am in the morning, sitting alone in the living room with the cold winds blowing. my heart was pounding insanely for half of the show. thrillers are definitely not my kind of thing. but the movie was definitely insanely good!

2011-01-27T01:15:00.004+08:00

april.

watch it! seriously. parks and recreation comedy is comparable to bbt comedy. maybe not the first couple of episodes.. but i just finished season two and its goooooooooood (:

postscript. and this is long overdue, but i just read an article about this other show i love. being erica. if you havent caught it, catch it! its three seasons in and still awesome (:

2011-01-25T21:42:00.002+08:00

wingardium leviosa.

watched the first episode of the first season of banged up abroad yesterday. its a documentary series about people who tried to smuggle drugs and got arrested abroad. the first episode is about this couple who were travelling in amsterdam when it started. the episode is a mix of interview of the couple and their story depicted by actors. at the end of the episode, during the interview, the camera zooms out, and reveals the couple, separately filming their interview in their jail cells. maybe ive watched too many tv shows, cough prison break, but in my head, jail cells are mainly metal and white sheets, white pillows no? the ones showed in the series were more like a public dorm room. five or six people in a room, beds with colourful sheets, stuffed toys, small drawers (like from ikea), attached laundry room, inmates wearing jeans and spag tops, small pantry.. i think i wouldnt survive a single day in jail. it just looked unsanitary, and i dont think you can just take as many showers as you want, and i would flip out everytime someone else touches my bed. |:

on another note. i just started watching saturday night live (: ive always heard a lot about it, but never really got down to watching it. i knew they had like guest hosts, skits, segments and stuff, but didnt really know until just now. its kinda like studio sixty, not the show, but studio sixty in studio sixty. you know what i mean? anyways. it was fun. weekly dose of really good comedy!

and i got on to the second season of parks and recreation! the first couple of episodes of the first season was kinda (im making a hand gesture where i have my palm open, facing down, and tilting it horizontally up and down) but the second season gets so much better! the scenes between leslie and ann are just hilarious! this is just one of those shows you have to watch a couple more episodes before its gets great funny.. like modern family, til death, and from what i hear, 30 rock and the office.

britney spears toxic is stuck in my head |:

2011-01-21T00:05:00.002+08:00

men of a certain age.

watching that now. its somewhere between an ok comedy and an ok drama. but im only four episodes in. who knows? and this afternoon i caught the first ten minutes of the first episode of the us remake of skins. i have to say its rather unbearable. they are butchering the characters. and when they say remake, its literally remake, like main plot, details, lines. ten minutes is more than enough for that. anyways. fifth season of the uk original skins, third generation, is coming up soon! cant wait for that (: and when im done with men of a certain age, i have parks and recreation lined up! been hearing really good reviews of it, and i think im in need of a dose of good comedy! (:

i dont really know who did this, but its spreading around fast. the jurassic park theme played at a thousand per cent slower speed, making it an hour long symphony.

Jurassic Park Theme (1000% Slower) by birdfeeder

you may find it weird and boring and dull, but i actually quite like it! in fact, ive just spent the last twenty seven minutes listening to it while reading stuff online, playing games, writing this post.. i do sometimes enjoy classical music, i have a favourite playlist of orchestra pieces, concertos and symphonies on my phone. if i havent mentioned this before, try it! go listen to a good orchestra piece, while you are on the bus, train, just walking to work, or even in the office. makes everything seem so much more dramatic and significant. anyways. jurassic park symphony! if you need a refresher on the original theme, click here. man. remember when jurassic park came out?

2011-01-20T13:00:00.002+08:00

jeremiah was a bullfrog.

i was gonna watch the social network last night, yes i missed it in the theatres. but i accidentally downloaded 127 hours and watched that instead. you know, if it were me, i think i might have just given up, wouldnt have been able to go through with it. and he kinda resounds to me. the whole being an island thing. huh.

anyways. will watch the social network later if i can. meanwhile, read a bunch of stuff about facebook online. remember last year there was this study, every one out of four clicks on the internet, in the world, is a click to a facebook page? yeah, this is something like that.

heh. i bet you, yes you, either fall into the check facebook right when you wake up, or check facebook on your phone before getting out of bed categories. or both. or maybe there should be a check facebook the moment you reach your office category heh. anyways. thats just a part of it, you can see the whole thing here.

mm. ive read about the fb proposal, the fb breakups, and other weird stuff, but didnt see this one. what up with the two weeks before christmas? and follow the page for other links if youre interested. i think the article on 5 ways facebook changed dating (for the worse) is a fun read..

2011-01-16T23:22:00.002+08:00

bittersweet.

taken 6 july 2008 8.19pm

aw. i was looking through my old old photos and i found this. thats my mum, grandpa and grandma. cant help but stare down the narrow corridor.

):

2011-01-14T16:40:00.002+08:00

"humid homosapiens with full sized aortic pumps" - joey

urgh. i have that horrible feeling. my stomachs aching like i did two hundred sit ups yesterday. i think i havent done a single sit up since jtwo napfa. its aching badly from all the coughing ive been doing the past week |: this annoying cough is just happily circulating round in my family for at least a month now.

ive been cooking lately. just pasta. but still cooking. you know they say cooking your meals at home is supposed to be way cheaper than eating out? thats entirely not true. every time i cook, i do a different type of pasta, so i pop down to ntuc to get the ingredients, some vege some meat some spice some herb, and it always adds up to nearly ten bucks. and this is as opposed to me eating out, say just at plaza, usually either six fifty subway club, three eighty wanton mee, or more than often just a two dollar double cheese plain! and even with a large imt thats not even five bucks. i should rethink this whole hobby in the kitchen of mine. plus i always feel the need to shower again afterwards. and plus plus i have to wash dishes |: heh. well, i already bought the ingredients for today, its probably going to be a version of beef cauliflower shitake aglio olio with rosemary or the new italian herbs i just bought (: sounds funnnn.

and remember the josh groban vid i posted the last time? good stuff huh! well jkl always has good comedy! remember the handsome mens club? (: anyways, i was scrolling through some old jkl vids, came across this vid segment they do: this week in unnecessary censorship. a dig at their version of mda. heh imagine the fun they will have here, with mediacorp. anyways. picked one to post, the lost edition (: i realise most people i know, ok nearly everyone i know didnt and still dont watch the show, but i just wanna say it again: best show ever! i guess itd be more hilarious watching the vid if you are an avid fan of the show like me, but still works if you arent.

and btw, how awesome was the mega lottery numbers with just two off the lost numbers!
4 8 15 16 23 42

postscript. ooh. and my dad keeps asking me to go buy the lottery, the one which opens on new years eve. keeps emphasizing about beginners luck, first time buying and all. heh.

2011-01-13T00:51:00.003+08:00

never have i ever.

ive just started playing angry birds lately. yes im that slow, i was hooked on alchemy before this. anyways. seen and read a lot about it even before i started playing. the angry birds treaty, the more recent angry birds physical game, the life size angry birds carnival game in china (haha google it).. but this one i read today beats all of it heh! love the internet.

shows are slowly coming back! bbt was awesome as always (: the stars at night are big and bright *clap clap clap clap* deep in the heart of texas! finished lost girl first season, hope the second comes soon! and also watched the gates: within a small community, lives a group of vampires and a group of werewolves, always at each others throats. main character is a human, trusted by both sides, waist deep in all their issues. sound familiar? a little obvious to say the least, but its good all the same, but sadly cancelled after the first season. love the scifi.

i was going to post this vid of awesome basketball dunks. cause its awesome. but accidentally came across this! i know its a week old, but was kinda preoccupied whole of last week, didnt catch it when it came out..

gotta love jimmy kimmel (:

2011-01-12T15:33:00.002+08:00

back to reality. i feel stuck again. for a moment there, nothing seemed to matter at all. life and death it is. and i cant seem to understand, but once in a while, and these days, more often than not, id feel this overwhelming need to fit in. to be somebodys somebody, instead of being me. i really want to say on top of, but ive tried and it doesnt seem to work, it really is instead of.

i hate having these thoughts in my head.

sometimes i feel like i can feel beyond me. you know? it sounds out of wack. but sometimes i am just so convinced of it. and the more i try to clear my head, the more it comes to me. but other times, i just feel like im losing it. reality imagination feelings clarity...

2011-01-05T18:02:00.005+08:00

pause on life.

2011-01-03T20:26:00.002+08:00

that time of year thou mayst in me behold
when yellow leaves, or none, or few, do hang
upon those boughs which shake against the cold
bare ruin'd choirs, where late the sweet birds sang
in me thou seest the twilight of such day
as after sunset fadeth in the west
which by and by black night doth take away
death's second self, that seals up all in rest
in me thou see'st the glowing of such fire
that on the ashes of his youth doth lie
as the death-bed whereon it must expire
consumed with that which it was nourish'd by
this thou perceivest, which makes thy love more strong
to love that well which thou must leave ere long.

2011-01-02T12:40:00.002+08:00

only fools are enslaved by time and space.

20 predictions for the next 25 years. what a way to start a new year.
see predictions #6 #9 #14 #18.

remember?

2010-12-30T13:34:00.004+08:00

alien.

"friendship. it begins when two people choose each other. but what happens when we outgrow the choice, when little by litle our past diverge, our needs change, and one day we wake up and realise that we need to choose something different."

2010-12-28T21:59:00.001+08:00

2010-12-27T07:12:00.000+08:00

"im suffocating under the collective weight of your disapproval."
- erica strange

2010-12-20T09:42:00.002+08:00

you know the days when you just feel like plopping down, hiding under a blanket and doing nothing?

been having a couple of those lately.

no idea what i am doing.

ohh. an inappropriately strange vid.

2010-12-16T06:38:00.002+08:00

the four faced liar.

damn it. im still up. spent a couple hours watching indie films. mainly picks from a few film festival. loved the one about the quarterlife crisis.

mm. my friends seem to be sending christmas cards this year. so i thought id do the same. since i havent sent one since secondary school. but instead of buying them, i thought id make them. so i just spent the last half hour making one. i was trying to go for a kindergarten artwork touch. but turns out it isnt as simple as it sounds. im tired. haha. maybe i should have bought them after all. so. i might be sending just the one christmas card this year, unless i find the energy to do the other sixteen.

and now i shall eat some cereal and continue my lost marathon (:

2010-12-14T18:55:00.002+08:00

only fools are enslaved by time and space.

check out who is number one!

wahahahahaha. dont you all just agree?

mum: help me transfer some songs from the comp to my phone leh.
mum: how come i have no internet connection!
mum: where are my photos?
mum: how come my cafe world is lagging
mum: how come my cafe world is lagging again?!
dad: 怎么去internet看戏啊?

postscript. as you can see, im having a prisonbreak flashback phase. scofield (:

2010-12-13T19:59:00.001+08:00

i want to watch this.

2010-12-11T02:58:00.004+08:00

some things shouldnt be destroyed.

2010-12-10T03:26:00.002+08:00

wont you bury me.

i am old, i am weary
and im coming home to die
would you bury me by the old oak tree
tween the river and the ashley
oh charleston, wont you bury me

im the daughter of a merchant
claimed the seabrook line
lost his spirit to the crash of 29
left my family bound for europe on the adeline
packed my things and left my mom and dad behind

there the churches spot the skyline in an endless dawn
and on rainbow row wed walk the waterfront
there he told me he would take me
but it could not be
so i left the man i loved in charleston

i am old, i am weary
and im coming home to die
would you bury me by the old oak tree
tween the river and the ashley
oh charleston, wont you bury me

busted galleys, sick dead soldiers
found a navy man
wrote the queen to have him stay his term with me
i love my husband and my children but these my final days
i am weary, and charleston calls to me

now i see its painted porches
all the lazy noons
sipping tea until the evening came
and the graveyard where my father lay his southern bones
i can hear them now the church bells sing my name

i am old, i am weary
and im coming home to die
would you bury me by the old oak tree
tween the river and the ashley
oh charleston, wont you bury me

2010-12-08T08:59:00.004+08:00

as it seems. im rewatching lost! finishing season two now. i realise ive only watched it once. roughly. but somehow the dialogue is so clear in my head. and its really different watching it after finishing the final season, after knowing the answers to many many, most of the mysterious questions. but the thing that sucks is the part where you dont get the shocking reveal anymore. for people who havent watched lost (i still dont understand why people dont watch it) the show always likes a big build up to a final reveal with an awesome ost. so now when i watch it, its like oh ok so hes the guy who did the thing which caused the thing to do that to the other thing. as opposed to. OHMYGOD! SO HES THE GUY! WHO DID THE THING!!! WHICH CAUSED THE THING!! TO DO THAT TO THE OTHER THING!!!!!!!!!! yeah, you get what i mean. heh. and i forgot what a jerk sawyer was in early seasons!

im excited! after finishing lost, ive lined up rewatching the first two seasons of being erica! just in time for season three (: yes i like to rewatch stuff. as much as i like new content in my tv, theres a lot of fun in reruns too you know.

//edit
woo! just found out theres a special stand alone christmas episode of warehouse13 today (:

//editedit
ahhh! christmas special episode of warehouse13 was awesome!! love claudia (: if i had to rank my top five shows ever, itd be lost, friends, scrubs, bigbangtheory, warehouse13. see, even greys and house are not in there. though i have to admit, i paused after typing bigbangtheory for quite a while. what i really love about w13 is the characters (: you have to watch it to know man. for lost, itd be the storyline, the plot, the mysteries. friends, awesome timeless comedy. scrubs, jd and his inner monologue. and bbt, another awesome timeless comedy yet. (: im in an awesome mood now.

2010-12-06T01:54:00.002+08:00

am i only 23 or already 23.

at the point. the crossroads. at a total loss. no idea where im going. i want to say where i want to go. but i think at this point its more of where i can go. i used to be quite content with just sailing through it. life. a pass cuts it for me. no grades. just yes or no. but after o seven i just had this drive to not just do what i want but what i can. i have never put in so much effort in my entire life. as i have done the last three years. results have been in a couple months now. not what i expected, but everyone says its great. i silently think its because for the past twenty years ive set the bar so low, they all just kinda got used to it. the commendation letter was surprising and awesome in the way that it made me feel better. i received it just at the point where im down to thinking maybe my best just isnt good enough. well. guess what. im back to that again. i thought i had it. not for sure. but like a ninety per cent had it. and i didnt get it. this sucks. i suck.

on to happier news. i had wheels for a couple of days this week. it was fun (: especially the alone time i had during. we went to a couple of interesting and fun places though. had breakfast at this lovely little place at robertson quay, kith cafe. great great breakfast! had a simple toast and scrambled eggs (: was excellent. go google it. its one of those hidden places, you wouldnt chance upon unless youre looking for it. and if anyones near town and craving for pancakes, please check out strictly pancakes! near my old school. kinda in between smu and my old school. i think its one of the shophouses along the main street. you know the nice jap restaurant there? yeah. i havent had the chance to try it yet. so do tell me about it if you do!

speaking of food. i was browsing national geographic the other day. dont ask me why, sometimes i just do. and i came across this article about sandwiches. maybe i was feeling really hungry at the time, but i was really really intrigued by the first one. the yakisoba sandwich. im thinking: i love yakisoba and i love sandwiches. so this has got to be good no? never really had noodles and bread together before. heh and check out number four. fries sandwich! i think it sounds weirder than it looks. ive actually had fries pizza before. it was quite nice la. and the maine lobster roll!! looks so so so so so so good! damn. im hungry now.

one last one. i love comedy. who doesnt. missing big bang theory. anyways. a couple weeks ago i watched this comedy: quintuplets. it was surprisingly good! its one of those under appreciated tv comedy. like better off ted and til death. its comedy is more old school. its family comedy but unlike modern family or the middle. you can say the comedy is a little bit bigger, but not too obvious though. i dont like obvious. cough himym cough. anyways. seriously, check it out! if you are not an arrrrrr! person, if you know what i mean, you can easily watch it on youtube. i will insert the link... here. heh. i really really like the last two episodes (:

2010-11-30T03:05:00.001+08:00

ihatewaitingihatewaitingihatewaiting.

2010-11-25T17:57:00.002+08:00

all the same to me.

stuck in my head all day.

2010-11-23T23:00:00.002+08:00

4.8.15.16.23.42.

i am loving rockmelt!!!

screenshot of my newly customised rockmelt!! i am going to do more exploring, so watch the vid to find out more about this cool new browser!

2010-11-22T21:12:00.002+08:00

theoretical love is not dead.

dear sixth reader, heh ok, it does gets better toward the end of season one (: but i shall wait till season two ends before obtaining it. and you just made me want to eat green checkered thing too :| maybe i shall run down to get one after posting this.

the following paragraph is going to be a bout of tv related rambling. do as you wish.

i like the damon character. not because of the actor playing him (ok fine partly, hes really pretty) i love tv characters that are like him. the bad guy who is actually a good guy, or the bad guy who becomes one of the good guys. you know. they dont necessary have to be like plotting the end of the world evil, just bad. vd is coincidentally full of these characters from other shows. mr sark in alias (uncle john), julie cooper in oc (matts mum), jenny schecter in tlw (isobel), and theres also ben linus lost, cole turner charmed, sylar heroes, logan veronica mars (: dont you just love the moment, even if its just a fleeting moment, when these characters show an ounce of good in them? like when julie bonded with ryan, when logan tried to protect veronica, when damon appeared at the car crash, and didnt you feel good, might i add joy, when you read the last part about snape in deathly hallows? yeah thats what i mean (:

ok. i had a lot of things on my mind today. but after that bout of rambling, they dont seem that important anymore. well, i guess i just have to wait on it. for another week or so. at least im feeling good. plus i had koi today (: even though it was totally out of the way and i had to take a bus and two trains to get there.

jay brannan singing croissant. original version by chris o gorman here.

you are a perfect phylo pastry
i am a croissant
im just a cafe and you are a
michelin restaurant
and i know you always say that
no one loses
but i am that blueberry pie that
no one chooses cause

the only pie they want is
pie in the sky they know that
theyll never find and its a
typical city night

im the crack in the pavement you avoid
i am the broken glass
that looks so shinny in the city lights but
itll cut your ass if you sit down
i am the siren late at night
from an ambulance
you are a warm apartment on the upper east side
and gentle hands that

hold me in the rain
that strum away
that pick and play and
make it all okay

im a city night
you are a first class fight to
somewhere away from here
that i want to fly

you say its alright

2010-11-20T01:32:00.002+08:00

de de de de, de de de, de de de de, de de de de de, de de de de, de de de, de de de de, de de de, de de de, de de de de de.

i was feeling dramatic and hence the title. link for enlightenment on my very weird brain. heh. did you have an aha moment? hey, at least listen to the first part, its the prague philharmonic orchestra! fyi my strange taste in music does include orchestra pieces. from time to time i like to listen to the nodame soundtrack while people watching. makes their actions and movements look altogether much much much more dramatic and interesting.

back to john williams related stuff. check out this awesome piece of work!

hit here for the original high res version. blow it up and you will see that its actually the plot of the starwars movies. with the words coloured to create a picture of darth vader. you know, if i dont find something to do soon, i might probably end up doing stuff like that.

anyways. since my last post, ive gone through half a season of vampire diaries. i conclude vampires are like the new doctors. mm, and the soundtrack! not really my kind of music. one of the biggest reason i like tv shows is because of the awesome soundtracks. take the oc for example. you can say its super teen drama, but you cant deny that it has one of the best soundtracks ever. all four seasons. maybe except the weird christmas album. and scrubs! most people dont appreciate scrubs humour, but the soundtrack rocks! please check it out if you havent. and if you like what you hear, you should most probably listen to the soundtracks from zach braffs movies as well (:

and ive added a new panel at the top! people have commented that my one liner posts and picture posts always give this cryptic vibe. and blogger doesnt have that lj icon feature thing. so i thought the extra panel can double as that. so i can randomly post up a picture or a line thats stuck in my head. and as you can see. this week is jielun week. so. tada.

2010-11-19T17:18:00.002+08:00

schmeared.

my bagels came! i had a strong craving for bagels yesterday and the ones from starbucks are just too overpriced. searched online and found these! but they were only able to do next day delivery, so here it is now!

from nyc bagel factory (:

delivered to my doorstep!

mine!

with cream cheese!

and herb and chive cream cheese!

ordered the bakers dozen with the nyc combo! (sorry, in my excitement, i forgot to readjust the focus after taking shots of the cream cheese. only realising it now.)

closer look at the bagels!

(:

want some?

2010-11-18T21:39:00.002+08:00

teenage dream.

crap. i cant believe ive become one of those people who watches glee. WHY. OH WHY. is this what quality television has been reduced to? and in a day or two, i believe im going to embark on the vampire diaries journey. i suddenly feel like a fourteen year old girl :| well at least boone is in the show, hes pretty (: google image him! come on, you know you want to. anyways. im waiting on space to free up on my d drive. finished up with survivors today. survivors, not survivor. also finishing up with lip service (britains answer to thelword) and hopefully vd soon. and tada, space for season six of weeds!

im excited about tomorrow! heh i cant believe im actually excited about food (: this is a weird image, but the thought of janice OHMYGOD just popped into my head. eww.

2010-11-17T00:10:00.003+08:00

again, what.

official trailer for episodes just came out yesterday. short story: british couple goes to hollywood to remake their successful british tv series. starring matt leblanc as matt leblanc. heh. joey looks good with grey! and speaking of joey. friends. chandler. bing. cant wait for matthew perry mr sunshine! digging out the official trailer now. link here. mingli: linda from better off ted is in it! btw i figured since i have only five readers, i can just write them stuff by name in my posts.

2010-11-15T15:48:00.003+08:00

what.

not my best work, but still worth the post. i may have performed a miracle and somehow made him look innocent. i think its the eyes. they just seem too boyish.

2010-11-12T10:21:00.005+08:00

youre never going to get over it. but youll get used to it.

taken 3.21pm 11 november 2010

2010-11-08T17:07:00.002+08:00

cigarettes and chocolate milk.

my body clock is out of whack. ive been up thirty five hours now, trying to switch my nights and days. and the five cups of tea are not helping at all. though guy upstairs drilling and hammering away incessantly certainly does help a bit. spent most of the hours reorganising stuff on my comp. well, i like to organise and reorganise. i like to catalogue stuff in a systematic way. i have excel catalogues of my everything. movies, tv shows, music, you name it, even travel logs and itenaries. if anyone sees all of my catalogues, theyd probably think im at least a little bit insane.

lets skip over topics involving my weirdness. k. out of the blue i decided to give sketching another shot today. maybe cause i was organising copies of my previous sketches on my comp. and i just realised that ive somehow managed to have left several of my sketches incomplete, mostly portraits missing some facial features or missing a certain factor that i cant quite put my finger on. well, lets see if i still got it, or at least a part of it. can you recognise her?

2010-11-05T01:32:00.003+08:00

when my best just isnt good enough.

found this rummaging through my folders. its overexposed, contrast is off, focus is not there, colours are distorted, and framing is odd, yet i love it. my favourite fdc shot. theres something about how broken this picture is that calls to me. havent touched my fdc01 for quite a while now. so theres this sudden urge to take it out for random shots the next time im out.

on the left. i love these simple covers of crude/loud songs. point: anya marina/whatever you like, nouvelle vague/i melt with you, other nouvelle vague covers, pomplamoose covers, jay brannan etc. on the right. chanced upon her songs recently. love the voice. check out her myspace page for more.

postscript. for an interesting read. young, educated and unemployed.

2010-11-02T02:44:00.004+08:00

chapter two. misunderstood.

ive had time to think. to make the decision between what is right and what is easy. ive had time to think. ive been lost a couple of times down this path. feeding my own hunger for instant gratification. in the end its giving up something i really want right now, for something ive wanted my entire life. lets just say ive learnt that truth has no expiration date. sometimes we search too hard for answers that are right in front of us.

on a lighter note. im working hard to sort out, well me. and in the absence of company and abundance of time, let your eyes feast on my newly created wallpaper. tada.

see. fret not. im still me. just a usual post. and to top it off. a random hilarious vid.

2010-10-14T01:53:00.001+08:00

im nervous |:

2010-10-09T10:32:00.001+08:00

2010-10-08T00:09:00.001+08:00

hello world. updating from my cell for the first time. extremely not used to using qwerty with two thumbs. was away for a couple of days, almost like a short detour from life. even took a break from my tv shows, including bbt, shhhhhh no spoilers allowed here. read jodi picoult house rules. a very good read. sometimes amidst reading, i find myself relating to jacob. had some scary thoughts. reading room by emma donoghue now. very interesting and exceptional story so far. heh. finally used my borders.giftcard from last year. its eleven thirty now time for the one tv show i watch. about mr min and xiaoxi (: my guilty pleasure.

spent a couple hours at esplanade this week. was checking out the dvd collection in the library when i saw the music man! been looking for it ever since i heard lida rose (: borrowed it and watched it earlier! two thumbs up!! great soundtrack and very entertaining! practically smiling through the whole two hours (: really awesome for a 1960s movie (:

finally happy today.

2010-09-28T20:40:00.002+08:00

like a rose.

i cleared out my stuff today. mostly my cupboard. i figured since i havent actually opened the drawers in my cupboard for what i can only assume to be years now, logically the things inside must not be of much significance. yes? came across a ton of weird albeit memorable stuff. found my driving tests results, including the first one where i mounted a kerb and failed IMMEDIATELY :| two catapults, which i dont remember using before, and for what purpose i dont know. an enormous birthday card, i turned seventeen, from big13 but they signed off 'front row people' and there were only eight messages. were we not big13 when i was seventeen? huh i dont actually remember.

found a stack of photographs! had fun looking through them (: and neoprints! i look really different.. no longer tanned ): and the braces really made a huge difference! speaking of which. accidentally found my health booklet and sc report book! i was 3850 grams and 51cm when i was born! and i grew a total of ONE cm all through secondary school.. and i have no idea why but i kept all my trophies and medals from secondary school in my cupboard. there was quite a lot of them, mostly the interclass sports for all four years. and i also had a silver medal for zigzag dribbling from primary school haha! well, i didnt know what to do with them all, so i chucked them into the rubbish chute about an hour ago.

i think i must have thrown away at least ten years of memories. i even threw away my clothes tags. i collect them. collected. not the ones that says medium or large, the ones with the brand names. used to keep them on these long hooks in my cupboard, cause the tags always had a small hole at one corner. well. they collected dust. i guess they had to go. ohh. but after much deliberating, i decided not to throw my movie ticket stubs away. since i seem to have thrown away everything else. mm. last movie i watched was inception. last last movie i watched was also inception!

my cupboard door is running out of space for me to write on. i can only at most write one liners now. im thinking of starting a new project on the back of the inside of my cupboard. maybe not just plain thoughts writing. maybe a drawing of sorts. or the two combined. oh almost forgot. repacked my uni stuff. and came across my notebooks! the ones with all the doodlings and sketchings (: i realised i left a lot of portraits incomplete. and i seem to have ceased drawing for a really long time. last thing i remember sketching is me. also remember thinking i should resketch that. cause ive somehow missed out some thing some part of me. ):

i think ive pretty much cleared out most of my physical possessions over the last year or so. have very little clothes left. finally threw away most of my bags. if i had shoes, i would throw them away too. just cleared my cds and dvds. and without counting school stuff. im left with a drawer of mickey mugs, country erasers (which i cannot bear to chuck) and other mickey stuff, a stack of puzzles in the cupboards top storage shelf, a mickey mug full of ticket stubs on my desk, one box of my current stuff, and one dusty box of secondary school memories. thats all. is it sad that i can pack up my life in two ikea boxes? oh well. i shall try to clear out the last dusty box perhaps next week, which is mostly full of letters. you have no idea how many letters i wrote and to how many people i wrote in that short four years. ridiculous. and im also thinking of getting rid of my desk. since the only things i actually put on it are the speakers, mickey mug of stubs, wallet and keys.

this feels good. it feels right.

love me when im gone.

2010-09-26T04:17:00.000+08:00

yes?

2010-09-24T14:27:00.001+08:00

2010-09-23T02:28:00.003+08:00

the point of no return.

i just watched the series premiere of the event. reviews have been comparing it with lost, what with all the mystery, story narrated in flashbacks, and a glimpse of scifi slash supernatural elements. well. hope it doesnt crash and burn like flashforward. the pilot started off with a nervous guy on a plane and suddenly flashbacked with the words '23 minutes earlier' and also involved what appears to be some sort of plane crash. hello, lost much? and this truthseeker5314.com site. crossmedia? secret video taken by passenger on the plane? thats exactly like thelostexperience and find815.com. yes, lost revolutionised tv, created a whole new tv culture, but come on, be a little bit more original!

speaking of lost. i was playing jamlegend the other day when i randomly played this song. i was looking at the notes dropping on my screen very intensely thus didnt really listened to the lyrics. until i heard a part of the chorus which went something like i looked right into the eye of the island and what i saw was beautiful. huh! googled it immediately after the game. sidenote. hey, why is googled underlined squiggly in red? it should be a word! anyways. the song is titled man of faith by solar fragment. heh check out the lyrics here. big fans of mr locke? and i like the whispering part of the numbers!

looking forward to friday! season premiere of bbt and greys (:

postscript. if you were totally bored out by this post. meaning you didnt watch lost. let me at least attempt to add something a little more interesting. and amusing and ridiculous and hilarious according to me. check this out!

2010-09-21T02:52:00.004+08:00

a picture paints a thousand words.

tomorrow and today. been doing this for slightly more than a month now. i think its a good project, would feel good looking back at it someday. refer to title. i seldom take pictures in singapore. honestly, i havent really gave it a shot. by that i mean a real photog day. so most usually id post one of my favourites from my travel days. that way, at least im sharing a thousand words of a something, usually a perspective rather than a story, i once thought significant. enough to capture on frame.

2010-09-20T19:58:00.001+08:00

theres what you want and theres what you cant have.

2010-09-18T20:12:00.001+08:00

i

am happy and tired. made spicy shrimp aglio olio and sweet potato casserole (:
and going to eat green checkered thing (: with peanut butter

2010-09-16T01:25:00.003+08:00

awwwww (:

before watching the vid, just fyi kaley cuoco from big bang theory had an accident, fell off a horse. so the bbt crew and cast came together and made a get well soon vid for her.

(: (: (:

found this interesting.

2010-09-14T13:43:00.003+08:00

the simplest things.

i find that im such an easily satisfied person. im so happy i found a way to not break but bend my own rules (: ive solemnly decided that my mickey mug is getting old and tea stained, which can be totally cleaned with salt but lets ignore that. so its about time i take out the mickey mug that is next in line! yay (: its a white and yellow ovalish mug with a mickey in the front and says swell on the back, but i cant remember who its from, sorry! anyways, maria! yours is next in line haha (: i really like yours! counting that, i only have three more mickey mugs waiting to be used ): i remember there was a time i had so many, you have no idea how many people buy mickey mugs for me, i used some of them to store stuff on my table. anyways, swell is my new word, shall try to use it more!

kindle vs ipad ad.

and quite intrigued by this. dont really know a lot of the songs as usual. but am excited about the new keyboard addition, three part vocal harmony, extra cymbals to the drums, and most of all the new guitar with 102 buttons to simulate frets! probs out by the end of the year (:

interesting read i came across a while ago. been wanting to try get out of the house in time and ice cold drink in three minutes. really curious about the cure brain freeze! can someone go try it? i seldom consume stuff that induces brain freeze. also like the see in the dark hack, just that i felt ridiculous while doing it.

and i thought this was a spoof vid or something. come on, titainic two? well, apparently its real.

2010-09-12T01:18:00.001+08:00

yay (:

2010-09-09T16:40:00.002+08:00

if looks could kill.

i feel bored sitting at home alone on a thursday afternoon. the sports complex opposite my window finally opened yesterday and i have since spent quite a significant amount of my time looking at people swimming. i really have a good view of the complex from my room. last night we were looking at the activities schedule and it was time for the taichi class, so we peered out of my window and indeed a group of people formed up in the inline skating ring and starting doing what i can only assume to be taichi. heh. i guess i can start learning taichi every wednesday night just by standing on my bed and looking down at the complex haha.

spent a couple of days at hk over the week. skipped most of the usual tourist spots, but had awesome food! siewmai (: (: short hike at lamma island took my breathe away. literally. hahaha that was so lame, cant believe i actually wrote that. well. lets just say im not a big fan of uphill slopes. good thing we missed the stop for the longer hike at shek o. would have probably died. but the seafood at lamma island after the hike was probably worth it (: there was a xuliushan next to the hotel, so desert was excellent. didnt do disneyland, which i realise is such a waste since ive been to all the other three except the hk one. maybe next time! didnt exactly buy much stuff back. except the laopobing and mooncake and little novelty items. hotel was surprisingly awesome for the low price. cant believe i watched lost in cantonese on one of the nights there. haha and both of us couldnt speak cantonese to save our lives. photos are still in my sd cards. will take them out to sort and post another day!

postscript. cant believe channel five is going to show the 2010 mtv movie awards. kinda long overdue. already watched it but am going to watch the one on channel five and see exactly how much stuff they censored.

btw. new wallpaper (:

2010-08-29T22:49:00.002+08:00

heaven. im in heaven.

cheek to cheek. love this song. heard it yesterday on three rivers, reminded me of the above opening scene of gray matters. here is the original by fred astaire (:

2010-08-28T16:57:00.003+08:00

so bored im watching vids online.

and cant believe i spent one minute watching this.

2010-08-26T02:38:00.002+08:00

a solid perspective.

postscript. very intrigued by this.

2010-08-23T07:28:00.004+08:00

roses are red violets are blue.

cant believe i made myself get up after two hours of sleep. update later if i get a good shot. meanwhile. check out this link. historical events. fb style (:

//edit
spent most of my day at the indoor stadium watching yog table tennis mens and womens semis and finals. tried taking some photos with my new phone. best i could do. shot of the womens final match, singapore against china.

had a fairly small crowd for the morning games. but a rather enthusiastic non stop cheering crowd for the finals in the evening. twas exciting! even though we lost four straight sets |: well. was a long tiring day, but good fun watching the games!

2010-08-22T07:25:00.002+08:00

sometimes i wonder why the pieces fit together.

seven hours of hard work! ok. back. hurts. need. to. lie. down. now.

2010-08-20T04:30:00.002+08:00

when all you want to do is to curl up under your blanket.

nyc sunset on august eighteenth.

2010-08-15T01:25:00.002+08:00

when the compass wont stop spinning.

sometimes it just isnt worth it anymore. when you realise it is all pointless. and that you are just a number. a statistic. taken for granted.

2010-08-12T19:06:00.003+08:00

goodnight my someone goodnight my love
sleep tight my someone sleep tight my love
our star is shining its brightest light
for goodnight my love for goodnight

sweet dreams be yours dear if dreams there be
sweet dreams to carry you close to me
i wish they may and i wish they might
now goodnight my someone goodnight

true love can be whispered from heart to heart
when lovers are parted they say
but i must depend on a wish and a star
as long as my heart doesnt know who you are

sweet dreams be yours dear if dreams there be
sweet dreams to carry you close to me
i wish they may and i wish they might
now goodnight my someone goodnight

goodnight.

2010-08-10T02:01:00.004+08:00

eureka.

a new gadget in my hand. motorola milestone xt720. its been exceeding my expectations so far. except for the lack of an alphanumeric pad text input option. not very used to the soft qwerty keyboard. ohh its fun typing that, just slide your finger down the row. qwerty qwerty. ooops. anyways. got to love the apps and games. still exploring. yet to sync up all my stuff though. hope it is worth my new two year contract with starhub.

watched inception! totally my kind of show. loved the whole concept. would totally watch it as a developed series. too many loopholes in both extraction and inception to be explained in a short two hours. great cast as well. love marion cotillard. since love me if you dare. nine has been sitting in my documents, waiting for a right time to watch it.

i am such a out-of-the-world concept loving geek. smiled when i saw this. cant wait to watch the crossover episode between warehouse13 and eureka. ive only watched the complete seasons of both shows, which already had stars of eureka gueststar on warehouse but not as a crossover. the more recent episode of the new seasons had a crossover: fargo and claudia! just imagine the chaos they would make together hahaha. well im patiently waiting for the seasons to end before watching it! love crossover episodes (: they should totally have a hospital multicrossover episode, or like a crimesolving one. seriously, if you have mentalist csi bones coldcase criminalminds lietome numb3rs, altogether, what crime is there that you cant solve!

2010-08-04T12:05:00.002+08:00

can you hear the beat.

nice find by sy! totally my kind of music (: if you think you need some lovin by pomplamoose. also check out their cover of la vie en rose. love this song (: plus it also reminds of love me if you dare.

remember her? posted a couple of her vids of covers a while back. just heard her new original collaboration with this other dude. tambourines by daniela andrade and david leduc. (: (:

2010-08-02T18:12:00.003+08:00

i have often walked down this street before...

my mouth is on fire! just cooked my curry yongtaufoo as a trial run for friday. just in case ive forgotten how to cook it. and because my recipe is a list of vague instructions such as chop up dried shrimps and add chili paste. i agar all my ingredients. and today ive accidentally added too much chili and now the curry is really hottttt! heh. hope itd be better on friday!

this was what i said to my mum yesterday: 'have you retired from folding clothes?' well my dad had been washing and folding the clothes for the one month we were gone and for some reason hes still helping folding since we came back. its good and all, but my dads clothes folding is really ugly! even worse than mine! hahaha. i did try folding the clothes once, a couple years back, it was alright but just not as nice as my mums. hers is always one perfectly neat stack. no idea how she does it! heh maybe i should buy this and see if it really works!

ive recently been watching infomercials! haha dont ask me why, but people pretending they have some problems then getting introduced to some miracle product just cheer me up! the wearable towel. i watched this earlier this afternoon and it just made me smile the whole time through haha. also check out this ridiculous hair product bumpits. and the slap chop! haha the last one actually looks really really useful! and fun! and the vince guy is just entertaining.

but the pavement always stayed beneath my feet before.

2010-07-30T08:25:00.006+08:00

im through with playing by the rules of someone elses game.

yes im back. with a lot of thoughts on my mind. a lot of whatifs. a lot of shouldhaves. a lot of howcomes. and a lot of whatnows. i feel like im suffocating under the collective weight of it all.

on another note. the trip was awesome, so to say. did lots of stuff, saw lots of stuff, ate lots of stuff and said lots of stuff. was an experience, i would say. will probably do an entry about the trip, photos words and such, but probably another time. feeling kind of bummed now.

you know when you have stuff on your mind, mostly thoughts, and they just keep circling your mind and usually end up bottling up in your chest. and it just feels so darn uncomfortable. nerve wrecking but just mostly painful. what do you do.

i feel like im wound so tight, im going to explode one day.

haih. this is a rather depressing and self indulgent entry. for it to be the first after a one month europe break. im just really bummed out right now. please wait for the europe trip entry with the wonderful pictures, that would be happy and pretty. and all things colourful.

till then, i shall indulge in my tv shows. even though there does not seem to be any good show that is remotely original at all. did the middle, very typical average family drama. life on mars just felt like journeyman with a really sucky ending. its like if you watched all the harry potter movies, and the last scene goes back to that lighthouse place in the middle of the sea from book one and reveals that everything everything is a dream that harry had. good thing it was only one season. but that was the us remake. if youre interested at all, i would rather suggest you watch the original bbc version and follow up with the sequel series ashes to ashes, those two sounds way better. also just did warehouse thirteen season one, and pretty sure its alias meets eureka. and finally, watching mercy now, hospital drama but centers on the nurses. main character veronica is all dark and twisty from iraq, best friend no nonsense straight shooter, new girl all bubbly and naive, and a gay dude nurse who hangs with them. hot doc. triangles. elevators. bar across the street. familiar much? but i like watching it though, veronica is like harriet hayes meets kirsten cohen meets lilly rush. not just character wise but physically as well. heh, if you didnt have to google any one of those names and totally understand what i mean, you can be my best friend!

and speaking of shows, someone watch inception and nodame finale with me! text me! ohh actually email, fb or call, my phone has gone nuts, cant read stuff on the screen anymore most of the time.

haha just reread everything ive just typed. i really rambled on a lot about the tv shows. heh i need to find a friend who watches shows like i do. i really hate it when people suddenly come to me and say, hey you have to watch this something something show, its really good. and im like err yeah, i watched it one and a half years ago when it came out, and i quite remember going on about it or even recommending you to watch. ya. you wouldnt believe how many times that has happened. well apparently people just dont listen much to me at all huh. haha oh wells. enough rambling. k. i feel like eating pasta, at nine am in the morning!

2010-06-24T20:55:00.000+08:00

its a small crime, and ive got no excuse.
is that alright with you.

2010-06-22T11:15:00.001+08:00

from this day forward.

2010-06-21T08:03:00.002+08:00

good morning sunshine, the world says hello.

i am awake at eight am! this feels very strange. cause ive been nocturnal for quite a while now and yesterday i tried to change it back and slept at eight pm.

yesterday was an awesome day! i woke up early and went for breakfast at ikea (: and finally bought some boxes to store away all my school stuff. forever. suddenly had a craving for gougei, is that how you spell it, so we drove to chinatown! though i had to sit in the hawker centre to eat my noodles, it was totally worth it (: changed some currency, bought some luggages, had koi (: popped by sls to get some sd cards and decided to walk over to singtel at bugis to check out the motorola phone i might want. though my phone is dying, decided that im going to wait for the new range of motorola phones with the new android os. hope my phone survives till then and retains the one fifty value. hung around a bit, and decided to stop by le cafe and bought some golf ball sized pineapple tarts and awesome bead curd tarts (: and since we were in the vicinity, some rochor tauhuay plus fried stuff (:

life is good (:

woah. i havent had a what i did today kind of post for a long time! recently i always do random thoughts in my head or new vids i watched. speaking of new vids. im tired, so im just going to link them. vid one of some dude beatboxing super mario brothers themes. really amazing. and vid two of another dude using the violin to play sound effects for a super mario game. heh i love how he is dressed so formally in the vid.

2010-06-18T09:18:00.002+08:00

somebody to lean on.

although ive technically finished school, just that my graduation ceremony isnt going to be just yet, and im technically breaking while waiting to go on my trip, it doesnt really feel like the end. i thought it would be you know, more. in fact, the only time i felt anything was the moment that weird invigilator dude said pens down or was it times up at my last paper. now i kinda feel like what i always feel. the other day, last weekend, on sunday night, i had a mild panicky thought that i forgot to do some school work. and three seconds later, i was like idiot you finished school. it was just three seconds, but somehow it was a good three seconds. like i suddenly felt like i had something to do, with my life. cause right now im just bumming. bumming hard.

oh well. life. still on the freaking pie, just kinda stuck in a jam.

anyways. i love photoshop, its pretty awesome all the cool stuff you can do with it. but enough with all the photoshop pictures of sad keanu and more recently the vuvuzelas. well, sad keanu was amusing for a while, i kinda liked the one with steve jobs and the one with forest gump, but after like twenty other photoshopped pictures, it just got mean. and sad. and hello, ive only watched one world cup match so far and the vuvuzelas are just plain annoying, no matter who you photoshopped holding and blowing them.

2010-06-17T21:19:00.002+08:00

have a nice day.

i dont know whats wrong with my google, but it keeps making me sign in to my account. like i have to type in my google username and password everytime. do you know how my google applications i use on a daily basis? so tired of typing chua.shifan

anyways. remember the musical stairs vid a couple months ago, an effort by volkswagen called the fun theory? well last week volkswagen came up with another similar idea, the slide (: (:

looks pretty fun! and speaking of vids, i have no idea why i just watched a vid of twenty five years of oprah screaming celebrities name hahaha. yes its exactly what it sounds like. go youtube it if youre any bit intrigued.

and this is a really really awesome music video though i have no idea what the song is even about. check it. i wonder how long they took to make this.

2010-06-15T03:44:00.002+08:00

goodnight my someone.

sometimes i feel like i may have been born in the wrong era. dont get me wrong, i love all my gadgets, technologies and the ten thousand different types of coffee. especially caramel macchiato. and if i were to be born a couple decades earlier, there wouldnt be any information systems for me to study. and i would be jobless. but as far as thinking, culture, fashion, and lifestyle goes, i think im pretty much stuck in the past. this is going to sound weird, but sometimes, just sometimes, i feel like im not as evolved as the other people are. put me together with any group of people, even my friends, and id still stick out like a sore thumb. sometimes this difference can be empowering, but more than often it makes me feel singled out. you know like those game puzzles you played as a child, circle circle triangle, which is the odd one out.

well. wrong era or not. i still get to do the things i love to do. which now pretty much only consist of hanging out with friends and watching tv shows. and since yesterday, eating nonya zhang. which is awesome! and music wise, im still stuck in the past as well. my current songloop is goodnight my someone, also from the music man. check out this vid of kristin chenoweth cover of goodnight my someone. love her, still cant believe they cancelled pushing daisies. urgh.

regarding stuff from this era, ive recently just watched the mtv movie awards. missed it because i was studying |: anyways. im so amused by tom cruises les grossman, i think im going to watch tropic thunder. and harry potter seven looked awesome! not at all psyched for eclipse but will watch it anyways. and why do people keep asking me to watch the vampire diaries. im not one to be fascinated by all the vampiresque blood sucking, but if i were to watch something of vampires, i would probably opt to watch true blood instead.

and of tv shows, ive suddenly and accidentally piled up sixty over gigs of shows to be watched. and thats not counting the other ones i wish to acquire when theres actually space in my comp. im quite excited about season two of united states of tara. google it if youre interested, its basically about this woman with a split personality disorder, a fifties perfect housewife, a super hip teenage chick, and a very truck driver like man, and maybe some others i forgot. its quite interesting, cause she has a husband and kids, and its about how they cope with it. funny as well.

i cant believe ill be leaving in ten days time!! i feel so unprepared. i have yet to come up with an itenary. plus i havent settled accomodation for london, though the rest are pretty much done. and i feel like i need to go out and buy lots of stuff! like toiletries, jackets, bags, luggages and currency. and that i should also go get some boxes from ikea to store away all my school stuff forever! hoho!